Saturday, April 25, 2009

Detoxification







I think it would surprise most people I know that quite often I deal with trying not to be very annoyed....call it moodiness or whatever. This morning I was having one of those moments that I could tell was going to motivate me to do something unproductive like spend money on crap I don't need or something. So, in an effort to harness that energy to do something less destructive....I decided to get out of town. Going on drives has definately been an outlet for me....long, I don't want to stop drives. I did this a lot when I lived in Provo with roommates, either for their benefit or mine (I guess that's why I love Provo canyon so much), but it has turned out to be a very therapeutic thing to do. So, equipped with a package of beef jerky, a Costco croisant roll, some strawberries, and plenty of sippy cups full of milk and water bottles....Adam and I headed out to spend some time near Zion. Our first stop was in Rockville at the cemetary. Odd I know, but I dig checking out old cemetaries and thought that maybe I would find an ancestor's stone there since they lived in the area a long long time ago...no luck with the ancestors though. We went on into Springdale and played at a park and walked around by the Virgin River, which was very full due to spring runoff. It was pretty windy and maybe not the best weather, but me and Adam didn't really care. I just let him explore around for awhile while I took in the beauty of the surroundings and enjoyed his curiousity. I was going to go into Zion park, but didn't really want to pay the fee today and I could tell Adam was going to take a nap real soon, so after a diaper change, we headed back home. Adam zonked out pretty quick...and when we got home, I finished his nap with him snuggled together on my bed. It turned out to be a short, fun adventure that was just what I needed to combat the demons of anger. Feeling a lot better now....thank you God for creating Zion's and the surrounding nature.

10 comments:

Megan said...

I love how you put your words... I am glad that you were able to do something to get your anger out in a good way... Any time you need to talk, I am here!

JeMM said...

The pictures are great! Love you much!
Yup, you surprised me - don't really see you
as the type to be OFTEN angry. You are a great blessing to all of us - keep taking care of yourself!

The Leithead Family said...

I have always thought of you as someone slow to anger!! Funny. Sounds like you have a very productive way of dealing with it...I admire you as always.

Alicia H said...

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I often think how we all don't realize how others thoughts can benefit us for the good. You are a great person. I admire you. I never thought of you as a person to get "P" off. But I do believe that we are harder on ourselves than we need to be. So I am sure that it was not as bad as you think. But either way...good for you to enjoy the beauty of the earth and your beautiful son. What a blessing life is!

Who is G? said...

Yeah, I think I compare myself to my mom....who I don't think was angry more than twice in her life....so maybe I'm not that bad, but I do have a little bit more moodiness in me.

Lindsay said...

What a fun little trip! I didn't know you got pissed off....except at Mike of course! Let's do something this week.

JeMM said...

Gina, ask your older brothers - I think Mom got angry more than twice in her life. I just think by the time you were conscience of it she had such amazing control and really did not get mad much anyway. Also, Mom told me once that Dad never really let her get mad - he would come home and she would want to vent but he would calm her down before the anger was expressed - she also told me that she tried to calm him down when he was upset but it didn't work the same. LOVE YOU SO MUCH! MISS YOU! I looked at a plane ticket just for me - no luck it's so much $ right now! I wanted to be with my family when they took my Grandparents names through the temple but I'll go to Boston instead!

Who is G? said...

Thanks Jen - maybe pissed off was the wrong terminology anyway...but very annoyed, yes :)

The Palmers said...

I think I should start taking drives too! Zion is one of my favorite places. Now a days I feel like I did not know you at all back in the day. I learn more about you each blog.

Kurt and Shelli Barnum said...

Amen!!